Allthings In the MIND

I really have to ask how on earth are people living and still be able to sleep
I wonder almost only that

Well I wonder also this - did anyone who did see Jesus walking in the water actually check that how deep was the water

And also this could F1 car actually drive in the roof of tunnel

And can you keep helicopter steady and be under bridge

Oh and also this are Latinos more temperamental than others ( Irish folks not included )

Maybe this too do the smoking kill or is it the cancer

Message for I R A from Argentina

I have virus on my computer
And you have gorgeous eyes

Another message to my dear I R A from Argentina

Is that other place really slow for you or is only for me ( the one that starts with t )

And I am looking for method to crash their servers to halt ( something pure and simple )

Oh and you look like Little Princes while you sleep

How could I know " I remember , I remember everything " or something from Bourne movie

FUCK FUCK AND FUCK

I think there is something going on in tatu.ru ( or is it only me who the site takes 3 minutes to open a single topic )

And now it is working in normal speed fucking funny place that is

So what about me going to sleep

in 1h and 10 minutes

So 138 h up and 21,5 h of sleep ( I am not sure about any of those time figures - but I am sure it is roughly that much )

I need some sleep
I have down period of my bipolarity
I am bit depressed
Huge stress , too much distress

But I have a girl friend that cares , soulmate and two
So I have nothing to complain about really

I told this week to my shrink that I am drug abuser , just for kicks of it ( just to see his face )
I am terrible person , i have killed innocent mens
So ...

Wow you really think your shirnk understood??

No I think he did not understood , I think he is little twat that has gone trough too much schooling to know me

( fuck he has only studied psychology like 45 years and I have been me 37 years )

By the way I have B-day 20th this month

I just need some sleep , but I can not go before I R A has said sleep well to me

Oh and I have found best rapper ever

Steen1 or Liekehtivä Sikiö

Few songs from him

liekehtivä sikiö - rotsi auki

liekehtivä sikiö - liian paljon kusipäitä liian vähän luoteja

Liekehtivä Sikiö (Steen1) - Astetta Parempi Feat. Michael J. Fux & Massmurda-Pena

Steen1 - Unionin sotilas

Steen1 - Jarden Träkki

Steen1 - Sinisiä rappuja & punaisia hintalappuja

He Is G O D

I can not sleep without I R A telling me to sleep well

And I did sleep well - weird

Today is full of hopes , and highs stakes - hih

I am giggling like little girl , I did sleep too well

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Giggling is over , darker thoughts come to mind

About school massacres , I am 100% sure that all those could be avoided if world would be better place
If people would care more , and stop being bullies , It pains me to see these things happening

But since the world is slowly rolling to it's slow and painful death , I have to be realistic , so

I am sure that if every bullied person , would do massacre - world would be better place
( because I think that there is 1000s more people who does suicide because their life is misery , if all those people would do massacre , then bullies would need to go to them selfs and be scarred , very scarred )

So if you are bullied , and think suicide , I have better option , why not take your teasers with you , I will continue to pray for you guys ( not the bullies but the opposites )

Was those thoughts dark , I dunno

I am amazed that I have not done mass suicide my self ( since starting points to my life are far away from perfect , been raped by religious people , been outcast all my life , lost every friend that I have ever had , but still I am full of hope for better world )

I am so fucking sick at the moment
I accidentally ate bird shit today ( I mean quite large amount )
I have fever , headache and awful nausea , and I puke like park chemist

I am OFF , heck I can not even stand ( I have terrible stomachache )

I am still ill as fuck , now I can stand up but , I puke when I try to

I am in trap between two different loves ( and two different type of loves )
I love them both , partly same way , partly different

I D K W T D

I am lost , In my mind of mess
Mama and Papa please forgive me
Yes, I've lost my mind
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?


All the things she said , Running through my head

And I still don't know what to do

I only want what I can't have
I only need what I don't want
I only want what I can't have
I only need what I don't want

I am really lost

I did think that I could not love , but then I found it , then lost it again , then find it again , now two times moonwise

so in 4 hours I have to drive across the whole fecking country

and i am tired as fuck

but i hope the evil forces of the nature to be on my side

well i did not have weirder stuff on my mind

and i still fucking love two totally different type of girls

and other one of those is the type i can never get

and other one i have already

I never thought that I would get addicted to person but she has taken me beyond the grace of moon

She has lured me to her trap , I am lost and I hold no map so I can't know how to get back

Or Did I lure her , can not be sure anymore

But I love this trap , so much that it does not feel like a trap anymore

I love you girl , when you read this you know who you are

Brujeria wrote:so in 4 hours I have to drive across the whole fecking country

and i am tired as fuck

but i hope the evil forces of the nature to be on my side

well i did not have weirder stuff on my mind

and i still fucking love two totally different type of girls

and other one of those is the type i can never get

and other one i have already

And I still has not slept

I really need HIV blood ( and I need it to get meds that would help me with other problems )

So if you know some one that has HIV please let me know ( I could pay for it , and the person who donates his/her blood shoud be happy - because I am in tremendous pains , and doctors don't want give me meds that would help my pains - for helping me , and no guilty at all , because I have thought this a lot and I have made my mind up , so I can live with HIV rather than live with my pains )

I SO WANT IT

I am 100% serious I need HIV

I am out to sleep

Last night we screamed so quietly , you were tied up so cutely
I made you come , in various ways , you were tied to bed 1 and half days
Ice cubes , candle wax and clothespins , little riding crop and non ending orgasming

You are like pine so firm and agile , I whispered to your ear , darling dear
You are so goddess like , I satisfied you so many times , I lost a count
Your whole body was for me to use , and I did use it
I licked and fingered you so many times

It all started when I tied you up like an X , you wore tiny dress and t-shirt
I firstly cut of your shirt and tied your eyes with it , next I toke of your minidress , slowly
Next I gave you the collar of slaves , and admired your cute beauty , and your helplessness
Your breath was short , like this would be your first time , as I later discovered it was

I used a clothes pins for 15 minutes to show who is in control
And who is controlled , Oh my I still hear your scream of pain when I pulled off that thing

Then I made you come with my magick fingers , and skillful tong
I made you come many times , to tire you , so long
Then I leaved you in room alone , little panicking , but still full of hope , of getting quick release
I came back next morning , you were still sleeping , when I came back I lit three candles , to play with you and candle wax and Icecubes
I poured the candle wax to area between your heaven and your belly button , you tried to avoid it with squirming and little helpless screaming , it did not help a bit , so next I poured it over your pearly tits
And bit over your enlarged clit
Then I leaved you alone again with icecube between your legs , for few hours this time , when I came back the candles were burned out and you started to beg
I lit new candles and played a bit with you and cubes of ice and lots of candle wax
Then I released you just to command you to your knees in front of me on the floor
I told that you should satisfy your self in front of me , you started to resist
So I had to punish you at my laps with little riding crop
I punished you hard , and firmly until you begged me to let you do what I firstly told you to do
So you started shyly , I commanded you to get the pace as fast and to get it fast
You did it 30 and 30 and 30 minutes but then you could not anymore
I punished you then some more , this time with my bare hand
You were bent over front of me 15 minutes and whole that time I spanked you hard but firmly daringly and intensively
And then you did it 30 minutes more
Then I said I am happy now and carried you to the bed , tied you again
Opened my zipper of my pants , and satisfied my self a bit
While admiring your tired body , shivering from exhaustion , not be able to move clearly
I sit on your tummy and looked you in to the eyes , and said I am gonna took you now
I took you slowly , and when it was my time to be satisfied I took my self out of you and untied you
And commanded you to satisfy me with your mouth , and when I reached my highest point I came to your mouth
Then i told you to lick it clean , which you did

Then I admired your humiliated body for 5 minutes and lifted you on the edge of the bed and licked you clean and made you to come again

After I was done , I said that we shall meet again next Monday same time